Life is a payment..

Life is curious and well diversifed to me, there are lots things out there waitting for me to accomplish, what am I suppose to be? I am not that kind of quiet or peaceful person, passions are always needed to full fill my destiny. Living with fantastic daily is what I have beening searching for, however due to some unreachable factors, I am still finding the best pose of my life performance.

Somehow, I don't really believe the statement of "God is fair to everyone". Isn't it? Some people borned with everything, talent, pecuniary and so on, but some are not, are those people going to be trained after that? Or something special achievement, I don't know. Is just our fate to be. Just Do not get me wrong, I am not complaining, since there is always a right position for you, but you have to pay for it and we have no idea about how long will it be.

Certainly, life is a long term payment, you pay, then you gain. Is not about the outcome, is related with what kind of efforts you put.

Do we have alternatives? Absolutely, for some specific situations the answer is no. This is what we called reality. The less choices we have, the tough decisions we made....

Love to be love by you

I can`t believe I`d standing here, Been waiting for so many years and,
Today I found the Queen to reign my heart,You changed my live so patiently
And turned it into something good and real, I feel just like I felt in all my dreams
There are questions hard to answer, Can`t you see?
Tell me how can I tell you, That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you, That I`d blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you, To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved by you.

dumb

It seems so dumb, I have no idea about what I can say at this moment, is a empty mind through.

No more whisper

Just woke up from a dream that I ever had, it made me turn into a deep pondering... Its kinda weird through...

Lately, several things occured which were out of my expectation, I just can say life is always unpredictable, you never know what is going on and what will happen for the next second. To me, life should be curious, I am trying to discover and grab more attractions to my daily.. Just hope that I can keep the passion for every single second I ever spent.. . That is it.

Last week I watched "black water" which I reckon it should be nice, but conversely, its not.. The movie has the same story structure with "Rogue" which I watched b4, within this month also.. Its all about crocodile, anyway, I prefer "Rogue", more excitting..

Then we went to a very nice japanese resturant in the Garden, the feeling inside was great, unlike other sushi dining place, this one is warm.. ----------->

where, For myself, I don't have special dining desire on sushi, but still okay with it.. Not bad either. At least the surroundings were gorgeous.. HOHO.. SIGH! Look a kinda chubby already..

Absolutely, I like to try the different resturants such as Korean food, Thai food, Western food, Vietnam food or whatever.. No doubt, I am so keen on eatting. The difference is without whisper. I just cant stop.. HEHE.. However due to the financial issue, I have to control myself.. Otherwise it will not balance on the money I spent.. =)

Although the following week is study break, but it does not make sense on my timetable, still have some replacement classes.. I know is oldschool, but I have to say: Time Flies... I could not catch up the pace that it should be..

No more whisper, ever and again..

Vanity Night

Since I woke up in the morning, I felt kinda tired although I have slept roughly about 8 hrs, somehow, I just felt like to shut down my eyes.. Right away, I slept quite long time after coming back from the class...

I just watched few esopides of a reality American show called celebrity apprentic.. This show is about charity that the participants are all famous people in different areas and play the business games against each other. You will find a lot of funs when you are watching it, but also the disgusting facts that we have to face in the future if we are trading business. The difference is that the participants are using their celebrities.. However, is just truth, it always comes with bloodless, betray, trap, selfish and so on.. Everyone wants to be the leader, needs to fill up their desire, sacrifice the friendship or whatever it would come along.. Some people are over-confidence until they went to the wrong direction that they might not even know.. Anyway, lets come back to this, the mission of the show is always meaningful, whatever the particiants do, they just fight for donation and raise funds for charity agent.. okay, Is a nice show though that I havent accomplished yet.. .. ..

Dark night always described as silent so that I can hear my breath somemore.. Take a deep breath, Slowly close your eyes, and... you will feel.. .. .. Sleepy.... Now is time for Dreaming.. lol..

Birthdays Keep Coming...

It was just a kinda peaceful afternoon yesterday, the weather was so good...


I went to swim with friends since this is the first time that I am able to feel the water with my whole body in Bangsar sport complex after my vision correction operation.. It was awesome... I am liking it..
The water was so clean, kinda fun when i was swimming there...
Then after that, we went to eat porridge steam boat which I never tried b4...
Yummmmmmmmyy... hehe.. Then went back home for a while b4 sam's birthday surprise celebration preparation... Is a nice celebration through while I was just playing PSP around..
haha... OOppps,, Seems I was bad, isnt it??

Lately, Kinda lots friends are having birthday in this month, From Lovely JING, to 38 jian yi(which I have no chance to celebrate with) and NINA, Until LaLa jackson until yesterday's Ah sam.. OMG, I am broke of celebrations already... haha... But eventually, all birthdays are done.. no more, i think until NOV.. Anyway, Is always good to celebrate birthday with cute friends..
I m loving it very much... HEHE...

Finally, Exams are coming soon... Need a complete revision for it... Hope that I have the ability to cope any difficults in Mid-term exams...

Praying....

"Count down" night

Is 9pm already, Suddenly got a call From SQ, she asked me to go to Small Gentting (which is one hr Far from my home) for LaLa's birthday celebration and count down. No doubt, I was in it..

It seems that SQ didnt invite too many ppl, just a small round of my gang, JY and CY drove us to there.. We went there at almost 11pm somemore, anyway, is really a fantastic view and a wonderful place to "Yam cha".. Facing the Whole night view of KL, everything was just so perfect, actually this was the second time that i been there..the weather was a bit cold after raining...

Here we go: Look at this ---->

We were just sitting at the boudary of the mountain, several resturant here with really good business...

Is time for birthday song... Smiling!!!!!! Cheessssssss...

Anyway, It was a gorgeous night for me.. (I ate lots.. Made me wanna vomit somemore. ) haha.

Black Sunday

It seems in the rainy season now.. Mizzle like none stop, constantly for several hrs. Conversely, at least the weather was cool rather than a sunny day.

Somehow, I m always easy to get effected by the unknow reason, or i can say its coz of the bad weather? It was so dark since I woke up, why do not just cloudburst, the fastest way to express all out... sigh...

Today is the last day for olympics, with the greatest results in China's history, and became the Number one in the world that achieved 51 Glod plate. I am quite happy with this ending. In the dusk, I couldnt stand anymore, I went to watch the closing ceremony with friends in Alimaju although we arrived 1 hr early. The channel was repeatting the opening ceremony, I was still attracted by it, It was awesome, its fantastic for not only me but everyone in the world. So amazing, How could it be possible, Its just so nice like that.. Everyone got nothing to say on it except "wow".. Finally, the closing ceremony started, both us could not really get the meaning of the show, anyway, is just gorgeous. haha.. So pity, we were not able to finish watching the ceremony, coz they changed channel to ESPN which was not playing Beijing olympic closing ceremony, although we kept insist. sigh.. So pity...

Consequently, China has completed the unbelievable mission, I am so proud of it..
I think is the time for me to Fight with what am I suffering... Really, despite its still has some distance, but I should trust myself, I can make it.. Fightting...

------Baby wont you tel me why, there is sadness in your eyes.
------I dont wanna say goodbye to you.
------Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
------But there is something left in my head..
------..................

Is a classical song that sang by Michael Learns--That is why you go away.
I really enjoy this song very much.. The lyrics seems reflectting something that deep in my heart... hehe..

Things keep turning

Is a raining day, since i woke up, the wether was cloudy, although still a bit hot, but okay for me compare to my hometown.

I went to watch movie with ruby, elynn and carot. The movie was totally Strange, no wonder the movie is called "stranger", we dont understand the whole movie, what the hell is talking about or what the movie wants to tell us, really cant get it. It was just a scary only, meaningless.

Here r some pics.. that i Looked kinda chubby..
Need diet already when i am seeing this pics..
Then just walk around a bit, they bought some facial products, after that, came bak home..

Somehow, I still felt boring, dont know what can I do with this damn internet, damn laggy since my housemates always download things.

Gradully I started to think craps....
Then I will think about my life, where is the motivation for the rest of the few days of the coming IELTS, I did nothing on it again and again, everyday, i told myself thave tmr, but eventually, i will just ignore it, is not coz of internet is luring for me, just dont know what can i do besides this..

I Dont wanna be like this either.. Where is my attention? Well, I confess, I am just doing the craps day by day, like none stop, even though I have my mission, I cant fail it. I cant feel my passion either... Neither passion nor attention, they just gone.. I need to find a way out of my incrediable mazes. I loss lots on it. I keep telling myself, like hypnogenesis myself, but is still not working.. I am sinking into the deep water, almost killing me, I cant take my breath, just softly opened my mouth and let the air get into, lazy until just wanna lay on my bed, and look at the ceiling all the time.. What the hell am doing right now? Somebody can talk to me?


Because of you, I never stray too far from the side walk.
Because of you, I learn to play on the safe side so I dont get hurt.
Because of you, I find my heart to trust not only me but everyone else around me.
Because of you, I am afraid....

Because of you by Kelly Clarkson, Is one of the nicest song I ever listened..

Opening day

With submitting my application, I have my first official Blog from now on..

But I am still considering What should I write on this.. It seems not the first time for me to write my stuffs online, I have my QQ zone, friendster, and xiao nei already.

I dont know whether is a good way to express myself, at least, I spread it out, that is.
Furthermore, even myself also dont know, how long am i suppose to continue with this blog. lol.
Just write something first...

Life is curious for me, but when you know the truth, is always not what u thought, the facts is dispiteous, there is no such a place called paradise, by looking through these days, I was just so "boring", everyone has it own role in the reality of life, we are just actting different styles.

For me, I am still looking for my attraction although it has been a long time since I lost myself.
No doubt, I am just facing the same stupid question again..
Lots problems have occured, despite I have imagined numerous any possibilites. Finally, I m a bit fed up, escape from it. Lately, I became sentimental person, I couldnt go through lots things, although I know, I m not able to handle these craps.....

Anyway, That is all for today's...