Black Sunday

It seems in the rainy season now.. Mizzle like none stop, constantly for several hrs. Conversely, at least the weather was cool rather than a sunny day.

Somehow, I m always easy to get effected by the unknow reason, or i can say its coz of the bad weather? It was so dark since I woke up, why do not just cloudburst, the fastest way to express all out... sigh...

Today is the last day for olympics, with the greatest results in China's history, and became the Number one in the world that achieved 51 Glod plate. I am quite happy with this ending. In the dusk, I couldnt stand anymore, I went to watch the closing ceremony with friends in Alimaju although we arrived 1 hr early. The channel was repeatting the opening ceremony, I was still attracted by it, It was awesome, its fantastic for not only me but everyone in the world. So amazing, How could it be possible, Its just so nice like that.. Everyone got nothing to say on it except "wow".. Finally, the closing ceremony started, both us could not really get the meaning of the show, anyway, is just gorgeous. haha.. So pity, we were not able to finish watching the ceremony, coz they changed channel to ESPN which was not playing Beijing olympic closing ceremony, although we kept insist. sigh.. So pity...

Consequently, China has completed the unbelievable mission, I am so proud of it..
I think is the time for me to Fight with what am I suffering... Really, despite its still has some distance, but I should trust myself, I can make it.. Fightting...

------Baby wont you tel me why, there is sadness in your eyes.
------I dont wanna say goodbye to you.
------Love is one big illusion I should try to forget
------But there is something left in my head..
------..................

Is a classical song that sang by Michael Learns--That is why you go away.
I really enjoy this song very much.. The lyrics seems reflectting something that deep in my heart... hehe..

Things keep turning

Is a raining day, since i woke up, the wether was cloudy, although still a bit hot, but okay for me compare to my hometown.

I went to watch movie with ruby, elynn and carot. The movie was totally Strange, no wonder the movie is called "stranger", we dont understand the whole movie, what the hell is talking about or what the movie wants to tell us, really cant get it. It was just a scary only, meaningless.

Here r some pics.. that i Looked kinda chubby..
Need diet already when i am seeing this pics..
Then just walk around a bit, they bought some facial products, after that, came bak home..

Somehow, I still felt boring, dont know what can I do with this damn internet, damn laggy since my housemates always download things.

Gradully I started to think craps....
Then I will think about my life, where is the motivation for the rest of the few days of the coming IELTS, I did nothing on it again and again, everyday, i told myself thave tmr, but eventually, i will just ignore it, is not coz of internet is luring for me, just dont know what can i do besides this..

I Dont wanna be like this either.. Where is my attention? Well, I confess, I am just doing the craps day by day, like none stop, even though I have my mission, I cant fail it. I cant feel my passion either... Neither passion nor attention, they just gone.. I need to find a way out of my incrediable mazes. I loss lots on it. I keep telling myself, like hypnogenesis myself, but is still not working.. I am sinking into the deep water, almost killing me, I cant take my breath, just softly opened my mouth and let the air get into, lazy until just wanna lay on my bed, and look at the ceiling all the time.. What the hell am doing right now? Somebody can talk to me?


Because of you, I never stray too far from the side walk.
Because of you, I learn to play on the safe side so I dont get hurt.
Because of you, I find my heart to trust not only me but everyone else around me.
Because of you, I am afraid....

Because of you by Kelly Clarkson, Is one of the nicest song I ever listened..

Opening day

With submitting my application, I have my first official Blog from now on..

But I am still considering What should I write on this.. It seems not the first time for me to write my stuffs online, I have my QQ zone, friendster, and xiao nei already.

I dont know whether is a good way to express myself, at least, I spread it out, that is.
Furthermore, even myself also dont know, how long am i suppose to continue with this blog. lol.
Just write something first...

Life is curious for me, but when you know the truth, is always not what u thought, the facts is dispiteous, there is no such a place called paradise, by looking through these days, I was just so "boring", everyone has it own role in the reality of life, we are just actting different styles.

For me, I am still looking for my attraction although it has been a long time since I lost myself.
No doubt, I am just facing the same stupid question again..
Lots problems have occured, despite I have imagined numerous any possibilites. Finally, I m a bit fed up, escape from it. Lately, I became sentimental person, I couldnt go through lots things, although I know, I m not able to handle these craps.....

Anyway, That is all for today's...