Seasons in the sun

If not mistaken, this was my 4th time to attend the graduation ceremony in UQ, I will remember all the smiling faces and treasure moments that you guys brought to me.

Dilemma

U know, there are lots things out of control, there are fewer alternatives we could hold.

I am confused.. My head is spinning..

The winner takes it all

Lately, I am pretty tired, not physically, but mentally. I can't tell why, its just there.

Occasionally, it reminds me of a movie called "MAMAMIA" that I watched in KL few years ago. My mind is full of the scene. Yet, you are the one who set it up, and you are the one who make it stop. It's simple and it's pain.

I don't wanna talk, about the things we have gone through.

Though its hurting me, now is history.

I have played all my cards and that's what you have done too.

Nothing more to say, no more ace to play.

The winner takes it all, the loser standing small.

Besides the victory, that's my destiny.

I don't wanna talk, if it makes you feel sad.

And I understand, you come to shake my hand......

Rolling in the deep

Look at the date of my newest post below, I realized that is been ages since I left this land apart, now is the time to catch up. =)

I read through my past post, it just like mind blowing and my head is rolling. So much words in my heart are about to express, but yet, when I pause my mind and preparing to record something down, the words are gone. Yes, I screwed it up. I could not follow the pace that it should be. Always one step at back for those things should have done earlier. Is weary to walk behind and it makes me feel fed up. Not always, but occasionally I need a release no matter how erratic is it. What point of being stress and losing the tempo that belongs to me? Give me a punch, and I will have the chance to shout ''Fuck U''; Give me a club for the reason of ''Rock U''; not to you, but myself.

Life is a picture, you can not stop drawing it; life is a bug, you cannot protect it from being attack; life is a drink, you can not enjoy it before you get drunk. There is no reason for you to be afraid, there is no place for you to escape, so, just go ahead, U will find the way out, as long as I believe.

These days, Those shadows..

Without omen, the deadline is just right at the corner..
It must be mean a lot to me, I have no idea about what will happen when the last day come to knock my door.
Yes, I m gonna leave Malaysia, which means much more than it could be..
Over more than 4 years life here.. Amazing, isnt it?

From the start to the end, certainly, is part of my life, is part of my journey..
The journey is going to end,Now is the time to walk away to my next destination,although there are lots difficulties behind it..

I am just a normal human, I have my sensation, that is gonna be a sad thing..
Whatever reminds me about leaving, is always turning me into deep depress..
The feeling of it, is very tough to describe, is also hard to face...

These years, it seems I have been gone through lots things, it seems not.. Yes, is not enough. Absolutely, I want more.. I'll remember the tastes of trying new food, the smiles while making fun with friends, the feelings of staying up until late, the pressure of preparing exams last minutes, the passions of travelling to other places, the satisfaction of watching mid-night movies, the voices of singing in KTV, the scream of New Year Eve, of course is impossible for me to list out all here.. But for sure, its much more than these!!

The shadow is blinding me when those kind of things come to the this part...
Cant you see it? I left my footprint on some streets...
I will see this journey through the end...

I have some friends here, we laughed, indulged, and studied together...
I have some friends here, they loved, quarrlled, and cherished each other...

The words gone..

Is been a long time, I left this place apart..

The words have gone, the face have found...

Well, that was a deal...

I attempt to be, but it seems so dumb...

The unexpected reaction, the ongoing emotion, revealed that I am partially silly.

Greedy? Attention? Or just roaring...

How to define it? where is the standard, the border lines, the intangiable feelings...

Even though that is not willing to tell you so; no doubt, the words gone, the silent found..

Life is a payment..

Life is curious and well diversifed to me, there are lots things out there waitting for me to accomplish, what am I suppose to be? I am not that kind of quiet or peaceful person, passions are always needed to full fill my destiny. Living with fantastic daily is what I have beening searching for, however due to some unreachable factors, I am still finding the best pose of my life performance.

Somehow, I don't really believe the statement of "God is fair to everyone". Isn't it? Some people borned with everything, talent, pecuniary and so on, but some are not, are those people going to be trained after that? Or something special achievement, I don't know. Is just our fate to be. Just Do not get me wrong, I am not complaining, since there is always a right position for you, but you have to pay for it and we have no idea about how long will it be.

Certainly, life is a long term payment, you pay, then you gain. Is not about the outcome, is related with what kind of efforts you put.

Do we have alternatives? Absolutely, for some specific situations the answer is no. This is what we called reality. The less choices we have, the tough decisions we made....