These days, Those shadows..

Without omen, the deadline is just right at the corner..
It must be mean a lot to me, I have no idea about what will happen when the last day come to knock my door.
Yes, I m gonna leave Malaysia, which means much more than it could be..
Over more than 4 years life here.. Amazing, isnt it?

From the start to the end, certainly, is part of my life, is part of my journey..
The journey is going to end,Now is the time to walk away to my next destination,although there are lots difficulties behind it..

I am just a normal human, I have my sensation, that is gonna be a sad thing..
Whatever reminds me about leaving, is always turning me into deep depress..
The feeling of it, is very tough to describe, is also hard to face...

These years, it seems I have been gone through lots things, it seems not.. Yes, is not enough. Absolutely, I want more.. I'll remember the tastes of trying new food, the smiles while making fun with friends, the feelings of staying up until late, the pressure of preparing exams last minutes, the passions of travelling to other places, the satisfaction of watching mid-night movies, the voices of singing in KTV, the scream of New Year Eve, of course is impossible for me to list out all here.. But for sure, its much more than these!!

The shadow is blinding me when those kind of things come to the this part...
Cant you see it? I left my footprint on some streets...
I will see this journey through the end...

I have some friends here, we laughed, indulged, and studied together...
I have some friends here, they loved, quarrlled, and cherished each other...

The words gone..

Is been a long time, I left this place apart..

The words have gone, the face have found...

Well, that was a deal...

I attempt to be, but it seems so dumb...

The unexpected reaction, the ongoing emotion, revealed that I am partially silly.

Greedy? Attention? Or just roaring...

How to define it? where is the standard, the border lines, the intangiable feelings...

Even though that is not willing to tell you so; no doubt, the words gone, the silent found..

Life is a payment..

Life is curious and well diversifed to me, there are lots things out there waitting for me to accomplish, what am I suppose to be? I am not that kind of quiet or peaceful person, passions are always needed to full fill my destiny. Living with fantastic daily is what I have beening searching for, however due to some unreachable factors, I am still finding the best pose of my life performance.

Somehow, I don't really believe the statement of "God is fair to everyone". Isn't it? Some people borned with everything, talent, pecuniary and so on, but some are not, are those people going to be trained after that? Or something special achievement, I don't know. Is just our fate to be. Just Do not get me wrong, I am not complaining, since there is always a right position for you, but you have to pay for it and we have no idea about how long will it be.

Certainly, life is a long term payment, you pay, then you gain. Is not about the outcome, is related with what kind of efforts you put.

Do we have alternatives? Absolutely, for some specific situations the answer is no. This is what we called reality. The less choices we have, the tough decisions we made....

Love to be love by you

I can`t believe I`d standing here, Been waiting for so many years and,
Today I found the Queen to reign my heart,You changed my live so patiently
And turned it into something good and real, I feel just like I felt in all my dreams
There are questions hard to answer, Can`t you see?
Tell me how can I tell you, That I love you more than life
Show me how can I show you, That I`d blinded by your light
When you touch me I can touch you, To find out the dream is true
I love to be loved by you.

dumb

It seems so dumb, I have no idea about what I can say at this moment, is a empty mind through.

No more whisper

Just woke up from a dream that I ever had, it made me turn into a deep pondering... Its kinda weird through...

Lately, several things occured which were out of my expectation, I just can say life is always unpredictable, you never know what is going on and what will happen for the next second. To me, life should be curious, I am trying to discover and grab more attractions to my daily.. Just hope that I can keep the passion for every single second I ever spent.. . That is it.

Last week I watched "black water" which I reckon it should be nice, but conversely, its not.. The movie has the same story structure with "Rogue" which I watched b4, within this month also.. Its all about crocodile, anyway, I prefer "Rogue", more excitting..

Then we went to a very nice japanese resturant in the Garden, the feeling inside was great, unlike other sushi dining place, this one is warm.. ----------->

where, For myself, I don't have special dining desire on sushi, but still okay with it.. Not bad either. At least the surroundings were gorgeous.. HOHO.. SIGH! Look a kinda chubby already..

Absolutely, I like to try the different resturants such as Korean food, Thai food, Western food, Vietnam food or whatever.. No doubt, I am so keen on eatting. The difference is without whisper. I just cant stop.. HEHE.. However due to the financial issue, I have to control myself.. Otherwise it will not balance on the money I spent.. =)

Although the following week is study break, but it does not make sense on my timetable, still have some replacement classes.. I know is oldschool, but I have to say: Time Flies... I could not catch up the pace that it should be..

No more whisper, ever and again..

Vanity Night

Since I woke up in the morning, I felt kinda tired although I have slept roughly about 8 hrs, somehow, I just felt like to shut down my eyes.. Right away, I slept quite long time after coming back from the class...

I just watched few esopides of a reality American show called celebrity apprentic.. This show is about charity that the participants are all famous people in different areas and play the business games against each other. You will find a lot of funs when you are watching it, but also the disgusting facts that we have to face in the future if we are trading business. The difference is that the participants are using their celebrities.. However, is just truth, it always comes with bloodless, betray, trap, selfish and so on.. Everyone wants to be the leader, needs to fill up their desire, sacrifice the friendship or whatever it would come along.. Some people are over-confidence until they went to the wrong direction that they might not even know.. Anyway, lets come back to this, the mission of the show is always meaningful, whatever the particiants do, they just fight for donation and raise funds for charity agent.. okay, Is a nice show though that I havent accomplished yet.. .. ..

Dark night always described as silent so that I can hear my breath somemore.. Take a deep breath, Slowly close your eyes, and... you will feel.. .. .. Sleepy.... Now is time for Dreaming.. lol..