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I have got a fever since this early morning, woke up with ached muscle, it wasn't feel good at all. I can't remember when was the last time I woke up at such hour, my head was spinning. Even I have tried so hard to make myself sweat according to the traditional way of healing, I am still suffering it.

Until now, I summoned my thoughts, I am questioning myself, what I have been doing since I came back home. H.O.M.E, the place I have left for nearly 7 years, it was like a really long dream, and I couldn't wake up from it, I am still stuck in the good old times. I have so many doubts about the place that I am living now, ironically I can't escape from it. Life is cark from the deep of my heart, I can't find any happiness. I loss the most important thing in my life: PASSION.

Future? Stop running, I can't catch up the pace that it should be.

T.I.M.E

When you give someone your time, you are giving them a portion of your life that you will never get back. That is why the greatest gift you can give someone is your time. So, share more time with your friends, family or lover and the best way to spell love is T.I.M.E.

Seasons in the sun

If not mistaken, this was my 4th time to attend the graduation ceremony in UQ, I will remember all the smiling faces and treasure moments that you guys brought to me.

Dilemma

U know, there are lots things out of control, there are fewer alternatives we could hold.

I am confused.. My head is spinning..

The winner takes it all

Lately, I am pretty tired, not physically, but mentally. I can't tell why, its just there.

Occasionally, it reminds me of a movie called "MAMAMIA" that I watched in KL few years ago. My mind is full of the scene. Yet, you are the one who set it up, and you are the one who make it stop. It's simple and it's pain.

I don't wanna talk, about the things we have gone through.

Though its hurting me, now is history.

I have played all my cards and that's what you have done too.

Nothing more to say, no more ace to play.

The winner takes it all, the loser standing small.

Besides the victory, that's my destiny.

I don't wanna talk, if it makes you feel sad.

And I understand, you come to shake my hand......

Rolling in the deep

Look at the date of my newest post below, I realized that is been ages since I left this land apart, now is the time to catch up. =)

I read through my past post, it just like mind blowing and my head is rolling. So much words in my heart are about to express, but yet, when I pause my mind and preparing to record something down, the words are gone. Yes, I screwed it up. I could not follow the pace that it should be. Always one step at back for those things should have done earlier. Is weary to walk behind and it makes me feel fed up. Not always, but occasionally I need a release no matter how erratic is it. What point of being stress and losing the tempo that belongs to me? Give me a punch, and I will have the chance to shout ''Fuck U''; Give me a club for the reason of ''Rock U''; not to you, but myself.

Life is a picture, you can not stop drawing it; life is a bug, you cannot protect it from being attack; life is a drink, you can not enjoy it before you get drunk. There is no reason for you to be afraid, there is no place for you to escape, so, just go ahead, U will find the way out, as long as I believe.

These days, Those shadows..

Without omen, the deadline is just right at the corner..
It must be mean a lot to me, I have no idea about what will happen when the last day come to knock my door.
Yes, I m gonna leave Malaysia, which means much more than it could be..
Over more than 4 years life here.. Amazing, isnt it?

From the start to the end, certainly, is part of my life, is part of my journey..
The journey is going to end,Now is the time to walk away to my next destination,although there are lots difficulties behind it..

I am just a normal human, I have my sensation, that is gonna be a sad thing..
Whatever reminds me about leaving, is always turning me into deep depress..
The feeling of it, is very tough to describe, is also hard to face...

These years, it seems I have been gone through lots things, it seems not.. Yes, is not enough. Absolutely, I want more.. I'll remember the tastes of trying new food, the smiles while making fun with friends, the feelings of staying up until late, the pressure of preparing exams last minutes, the passions of travelling to other places, the satisfaction of watching mid-night movies, the voices of singing in KTV, the scream of New Year Eve, of course is impossible for me to list out all here.. But for sure, its much more than these!!

The shadow is blinding me when those kind of things come to the this part...
Cant you see it? I left my footprint on some streets...
I will see this journey through the end...

I have some friends here, we laughed, indulged, and studied together...
I have some friends here, they loved, quarrlled, and cherished each other...